The familiar feeling

Feeling unhappy today...
Duno why, it occurs many times ad..
Bt dis time, some scary feelings cum bck to me...

Feeling scared, helpless n alone...
Lying on the bed, in the dark room...
Looking at the handphone...
Hope cn gt sumthing from it...
Pretend dat i m happy in front of mum when she cum in2 the room to make sure dat i m ok..
The tears wan to flow out bt i hold back it....

Few years ago, i gt such feelings indeed...
It's familiar to me...
I hate n scared of dis feeling...
I wun allow it to enter in2 my heart anymore...
How silly i m!

Is dat sumthing changed bt we din realise abt it?
Or dis is the normal phenomenon actuali?
I had lost sumthing...
N i have to find out the  reason n let myself to bck to normal... 哈咯谢谢光临，欢迎留言:)！